*gasp* I am deviating from the plan! No song lyrics in this post... I had a frustrating evening and wanted to share. To save timem I've simply copied and pasted from the IM where I had my little rant. I hesitate to say IM conversation, because I was doing most of the typing....
Audra B: I needed the relaxation, cause dad p***ed me off this evening.
Audra B: I need new brakes, especially on my front wheels. this is not a "get them fixed eventually" situation, or I would've waited til payday and paid ou the extra money to get them fixed somewhere else. but I spent a LOT less money and got the brakes to fix them at home. On the way home I call and ask dad if he'll help me fix them, and he cracks off he's been waiting 45 minutes for me..
Audra B: well I get home a little after 5.. still plenty of light.
Audra B: we have dinner... and dad dicks around watching at least an hour's worth of TV, and complaining that he couldn't find a particular tool needed. I don't get him out of the house until 6:30. Then we get over to my car and he's like "well let's make sure you really need the brakes fixed first"
Audra B: because I'm apparently stupid and haven't been driving this car enough to know the difference between "good" sounding brakes and "bad"
Audra B: when he finally determines, yes I do in fact need the brakes changed.. it's too dark too do anything and we'll do it tomorrow.
Audra B: I'll just have to "put up with the noise" til tomorrow afternoon.
Audra B: now, in my limited experience (since January 1 2008, I have driven my car a minimum of 89.8 miles a day, 7 days a week, with only brief respites during major holidays or when other things were being repaired), a loud grating/grinding noise is an indication that something is, believe it or not... grating or grinding against something else, which I humbly feel is not a beneficial situation for a person who has to hit the brakes a minimum of 140 times a day, and that is just the paper tube stops I am considering, not taking into consideration the typical starts and stops
Audra B: of the average drive from my house to Bedford, and then from Bedford to my first delivery spot, and then the any dozens of reasons I may have to stop in between customers.. Audra B: *deep breath*
Audra B: but I can't change them on my own, just for the fact that the last time the tires were messed with was when I had new tires put on... and they like using that wonderful air gun to tighten the lugnuts..
Audra B: last time I tried to remove lugnuts tightened by an air gun, it took the combined efforts of me a guy that stopped to help me, and two of his three children
Audra B: i think what p****ed me off was dad saying he couldn't find the c-clamp he needed.. that he'd looked everywhere.. and we can't fix the brakes without a c-clamp.. to hold the caliper.. or something or other..
Audra B: I walked right into the shed, glanced right, glanced left... and the c-clamp was hanging up in plain sight.
Audra B: it made me think "if you don't want to help just f***ing say so."
Audra B: I believe that has become my new pet peeve.. not with dad but with people in general. Audra B: if you don't want to do it, just freaking say so. don't agree just to be polite or spare someone's feelings or it's the "right" thing to do.. because if you're not wanting to help, or be present, or do whatever.. then your heart's not in it.. you'll end up doing a sub-standard job at best, which I think can cause more damage than just refusing to help in the first place.
Audra B: *sigh* I'll step down off my soap box now... but I'm keeping it handy.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Monday, October 20, 2008
I Knew I Loved You (Before I Met You)
Was lying here being melancholy, and that song popped into my head. It has a special significance to me, and reminds me of happier memories.
I miss the man who sang it to me..
I Knew I Loved You Before I Met You - Savage Garden
Maybe it's intuition
But some things you just don't question
Like in your eyes I see my future in an instant
And there it goes
I think I've found my best friend
I know that it might sound more than a little crazy
But I believe
I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life
There's just no rhyme or reason
Only this sense of completion
And in your eyes
I see the missing pieces I'm searching for
I think I've found my way home
I know that it might sound more than a little crazy
But I believe
I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life
A thousand angels dance around you
I am complete now that I've found you
I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life...
I miss the man who sang it to me..
I Knew I Loved You Before I Met You - Savage Garden
Maybe it's intuition
But some things you just don't question
Like in your eyes I see my future in an instant
And there it goes
I think I've found my best friend
I know that it might sound more than a little crazy
But I believe
I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life
There's just no rhyme or reason
Only this sense of completion
And in your eyes
I see the missing pieces I'm searching for
I think I've found my way home
I know that it might sound more than a little crazy
But I believe
I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life
A thousand angels dance around you
I am complete now that I've found you
I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life...
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Awake
I love Josh Groban. He and Michael Crawford are my two favorite male singers... not to mention the guy is cute as a bug. :)
I just (as in, less than five minutes ago) heard a song of his that I had not heard before... and it had the same effect on me as when I first heard the young man sing.
It made my heart hurt. That breathless, clenching hurt that you read about in romance novels. but don't find too often in real life.
Can't think of anything else to say.. heh
Awake -Josh Groban
A beautiful and blinding morning
The world outside begins to breathe
See clouds arriving without warning
I need you here to shelter me
And I know that only time will tell us how
To carry on without each other
So keep me awake to memorize you
Give me more time to feel this way
We can't stay like this forever
But I can have you next to me today
If I could make these moments endless
If I could stop the winds of change
If we just keep our eyes wide open
Then everything would stay the same
And I know that only time will tell me how
We'll carry on without each other
So keep me awake for every moment
Give us more time to be this way
We can't stay like this forever
But I can have you next to me today
We'll let tomorrow wait, you're here, right now, with me
All my fears just fall away, when you are all I see
We can't stay like this forever
But I have you here today
And I will remember
Oh I will remember
Remember all the love we shared today
I just (as in, less than five minutes ago) heard a song of his that I had not heard before... and it had the same effect on me as when I first heard the young man sing.
It made my heart hurt. That breathless, clenching hurt that you read about in romance novels. but don't find too often in real life.
Can't think of anything else to say.. heh
Awake -Josh Groban
A beautiful and blinding morning
The world outside begins to breathe
See clouds arriving without warning
I need you here to shelter me
And I know that only time will tell us how
To carry on without each other
So keep me awake to memorize you
Give me more time to feel this way
We can't stay like this forever
But I can have you next to me today
If I could make these moments endless
If I could stop the winds of change
If we just keep our eyes wide open
Then everything would stay the same
And I know that only time will tell me how
We'll carry on without each other
So keep me awake for every moment
Give us more time to be this way
We can't stay like this forever
But I can have you next to me today
We'll let tomorrow wait, you're here, right now, with me
All my fears just fall away, when you are all I see
We can't stay like this forever
But I have you here today
And I will remember
Oh I will remember
Remember all the love we shared today
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
You Oughta Know
Anger is a very draining emotion. I've been working at other options besides anger to deal with certain issues in my life, but sometimes...
Anyhoo.. there's a favorite song of mine that I used to sing during karaoke nights with an old friend of mine that was excellent for channeling anger, especially when my boyfriend was ignoring me. Though, "ignoring" is probably the wrong word. Ignoring something implies that you know it's there, you're just pretending it's not. I think he just forgot I existed... seems I was fairly easy to forget back then.
Often wonder how long it would take people to get over it if I just disappeared for good...
Probably not long....
You Oughta Know -Alanis Morissette
I want you to know
That I'm happy for you
I wish nothing but
The best for you both.
An older version of me
Is she perverted like me?
Would she go gown on you in a theatre?
Does she speak eloquently?
And would she have your baby?
I'm sure she'd make a really excellent mother.
Cause the love that you gave
that we made
wasn't able to make it enough for you to be open wide
No
And every time you speak her name
Does she how how you told me
you'd hold me until you, til you die
well you're still alive
And I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away.
It's not fair
to deny me
of the cross I bear that you gave to me
you you you
oughta know
You seem very well
Things look peaceful
I'm not quite as well
I thought you should know
Did you forget about me,
Mr. Duplicity?
I hate to bug you
in the middle of dinner
It was a slap in the face
how quickly I was replaced
and are you thinking of me
when you F*** her?
Cause the love that you gave
that we made wasn't able to make it
enough for you to be open wide
No
And every time you speak her name
does she know how you told me
you'd hold me until I die, til I die
well buddy you're still alive
and
I'm here to remind you
of the mess you left when you went away
it's not fair, to deny me
of the cross i bear that you gave to me
you you you
oughta know
Cause the joke that you made in the bed,
that was me and I'm not gonna fade as soon
as you close your eyes.
And you know it.
And every time I scratch my nails
down someone else's back
I hope ya feel it.
Well can ya feel it?
Oh I'm here to remind you
if the mess you left when you went away
Its not fair to deny me of the cross I bear
that you gave to me
You you you
oughta know I am here
to remind you
if the mess you left when you went away
it's not fair
to deny me
of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You you you
oughta know.
Anyhoo.. there's a favorite song of mine that I used to sing during karaoke nights with an old friend of mine that was excellent for channeling anger, especially when my boyfriend was ignoring me. Though, "ignoring" is probably the wrong word. Ignoring something implies that you know it's there, you're just pretending it's not. I think he just forgot I existed... seems I was fairly easy to forget back then.
Often wonder how long it would take people to get over it if I just disappeared for good...
Probably not long....
You Oughta Know -Alanis Morissette
I want you to know
That I'm happy for you
I wish nothing but
The best for you both.
An older version of me
Is she perverted like me?
Would she go gown on you in a theatre?
Does she speak eloquently?
And would she have your baby?
I'm sure she'd make a really excellent mother.
Cause the love that you gave
that we made
wasn't able to make it enough for you to be open wide
No
And every time you speak her name
Does she how how you told me
you'd hold me until you, til you die
well you're still alive
And I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away.
It's not fair
to deny me
of the cross I bear that you gave to me
you you you
oughta know
You seem very well
Things look peaceful
I'm not quite as well
I thought you should know
Did you forget about me,
Mr. Duplicity?
I hate to bug you
in the middle of dinner
It was a slap in the face
how quickly I was replaced
and are you thinking of me
when you F*** her?
Cause the love that you gave
that we made wasn't able to make it
enough for you to be open wide
No
And every time you speak her name
does she know how you told me
you'd hold me until I die, til I die
well buddy you're still alive
and
I'm here to remind you
of the mess you left when you went away
it's not fair, to deny me
of the cross i bear that you gave to me
you you you
oughta know
Cause the joke that you made in the bed,
that was me and I'm not gonna fade as soon
as you close your eyes.
And you know it.
And every time I scratch my nails
down someone else's back
I hope ya feel it.
Well can ya feel it?
Oh I'm here to remind you
if the mess you left when you went away
Its not fair to deny me of the cross I bear
that you gave to me
You you you
oughta know I am here
to remind you
if the mess you left when you went away
it's not fair
to deny me
of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You you you
oughta know.
Thursday, October 09, 2008
Out Tonight
Okay.. so I fed my inner closet romantic just a few minutes ago...
Now.. the inner slut wants a nibble :-P
Musical: Rent
Song: Out Tonight
What's The Time?
Well It's Gotta Be Close To Midnight
My Body's Talking Me
It Says, 'Time For Danger'
It Says 'I Wanna Commit A Crime
Wanna Be The Cause Of A Fight
Wanna Put On a Tight Skirt And Flirt
With A Stranger'
I've Had A Knack From Way Back
Of Breaking The Rules Once I Learn The Games
Get Up - Life's Too Quick
I Know Someplace Sick
Where This Chick'll Dance In The Flames
We Don't Need Any Money
I Always Get In For Free
You Can Get In Too
If You Get In With Me
Let's Go Ouuuuuut Tonight
I Have To Go Ouuuuuut Tonight
You Wanna Play?
Let's Run AwayWe Won't Be Back
Before It's Christmas day
Take Me Ouuuuuut Tonight (Meow)
When I Get A Wink From The Doorman
Do You Know How Lucky You'll Be?
That You're On Line With The Feline Of
Avenue B
Let's Go Ouuuuuut Tonight
I Have To Go Ouuuuut Tonight
You Wanna Prowl
Be My Night Owl?
Well Take My Hand We're Gonna Hooooowl
Ouuuuut Tonight
In The Evening I've Got To Roam
Can't Sleep In The City Of Neon And Chrome
Feels Too Damn Much Like Home
When The Spanish Babies Cry
So Let's go find a Bar
So Dark We Forget Who We Are
And All The Scars From The
Nevers And Maybes Die
Let's Go Ouuuuut Tonight
Have To Go Na na na Out Tonight
You're Sweet
Wanna Hit The Street?
Wanna Wail At The Moon Like A Cat In Heat?
Just Take Me Ooouuut Tonight
Please Take Me
Ouuuut Tonight
Don't Forsake Me - Ouuuuut Tonight
I'll Let You Make Me - Ouuuuuut Tonight
Tonight - Tonight - Tonight!
Now.. the inner slut wants a nibble :-P
Musical: Rent
Song: Out Tonight
What's The Time?
Well It's Gotta Be Close To Midnight
My Body's Talking Me
It Says, 'Time For Danger'
It Says 'I Wanna Commit A Crime
Wanna Be The Cause Of A Fight
Wanna Put On a Tight Skirt And Flirt
With A Stranger'
I've Had A Knack From Way Back
Of Breaking The Rules Once I Learn The Games
Get Up - Life's Too Quick
I Know Someplace Sick
Where This Chick'll Dance In The Flames
We Don't Need Any Money
I Always Get In For Free
You Can Get In Too
If You Get In With Me
Let's Go Ouuuuuut Tonight
I Have To Go Ouuuuuut Tonight
You Wanna Play?
Let's Run AwayWe Won't Be Back
Before It's Christmas day
Take Me Ouuuuuut Tonight (Meow)
When I Get A Wink From The Doorman
Do You Know How Lucky You'll Be?
That You're On Line With The Feline Of
Avenue B
Let's Go Ouuuuuut Tonight
I Have To Go Ouuuuut Tonight
You Wanna Prowl
Be My Night Owl?
Well Take My Hand We're Gonna Hooooowl
Ouuuuut Tonight
In The Evening I've Got To Roam
Can't Sleep In The City Of Neon And Chrome
Feels Too Damn Much Like Home
When The Spanish Babies Cry
So Let's go find a Bar
So Dark We Forget Who We Are
And All The Scars From The
Nevers And Maybes Die
Let's Go Ouuuuut Tonight
Have To Go Na na na Out Tonight
You're Sweet
Wanna Hit The Street?
Wanna Wail At The Moon Like A Cat In Heat?
Just Take Me Ooouuut Tonight
Please Take Me
Ouuuut Tonight
Don't Forsake Me - Ouuuuut Tonight
I'll Let You Make Me - Ouuuuuut Tonight
Tonight - Tonight - Tonight!
The Last Night Of The World
You guessed it... I love musicals. This lovely number is from Miss Saigon. And so speaks to my inner closet romantic. I've never seen it, only heard the music.. but from what I gather.. an American GI falls in love with a Vietnamese girl... is a very pretty song. He wants to take her home with him, away from the ugliness of the war..
I suggest finding it and listening... would put a link in here for a listening experience, but don't know how :) Anyhoos... "Last Night of the World" from Miss Saigon....
Man: In a place that won't let us feel
In a life where nothing seems real
I have found you
I have found you
Woman: In a world that's moving to fast
In a world where nothing can last
I will hold you
I will hold you
Man: Our lives will change when tomorrow comes
Woman: Tonight our hearts drown the distant drums
Man: And we'll have music all right
Tearing the night
Together: A song
Played on a solo saxophone
A crazy sound
A lonely sound
A cry that tells us love goes on and on
Played on a solo saxophone
It’s telling me to hold you tight
And dance like it’s the last night of the world
Man: On the other side of the earth
There’s a place where life still has worth
I will take you
Woman: I'll go with you
Man: You wont believe all the things you'll see
I know cause you'll see them all in me
Together: If we're together that's when
We'll hear it again
A song
Played on a solo saxophone
A crazy sound
A lonely sound
A cry that tells us love goes on and on
Played on a solo saxophone
It’s telling me to hold you tight
And dance like it’s the last night of the world
Woman: Dreams were all I ever knew
Man: Dreams, you won't need when I'm through
Together: Anywhere
We may be
I will sing with you, a song...
So stay with me and hold me tight
And dance like it’s the last night of the world
I suggest finding it and listening... would put a link in here for a listening experience, but don't know how :) Anyhoos... "Last Night of the World" from Miss Saigon....
Man: In a place that won't let us feel
In a life where nothing seems real
I have found you
I have found you
Woman: In a world that's moving to fast
In a world where nothing can last
I will hold you
I will hold you
Man: Our lives will change when tomorrow comes
Woman: Tonight our hearts drown the distant drums
Man: And we'll have music all right
Tearing the night
Together: A song
Played on a solo saxophone
A crazy sound
A lonely sound
A cry that tells us love goes on and on
Played on a solo saxophone
It’s telling me to hold you tight
And dance like it’s the last night of the world
Man: On the other side of the earth
There’s a place where life still has worth
I will take you
Woman: I'll go with you
Man: You wont believe all the things you'll see
I know cause you'll see them all in me
Together: If we're together that's when
We'll hear it again
A song
Played on a solo saxophone
A crazy sound
A lonely sound
A cry that tells us love goes on and on
Played on a solo saxophone
It’s telling me to hold you tight
And dance like it’s the last night of the world
Woman: Dreams were all I ever knew
Man: Dreams, you won't need when I'm through
Together: Anywhere
We may be
I will sing with you, a song...
So stay with me and hold me tight
And dance like it’s the last night of the world
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
Who Are You Now?
I have finally determined a "direction" for this blog.
I don't talk a lot (babbling is NOT the same as talking). I have a serious problem verbally expressing myself. Writing, I am not so bad with, but I find that I am most able to convey my thoughts and feelings via music. More specifically, I feel certain ways, and a song will either pop into my head or I will hear it and it just... clicks.. with what I am feeling at the time. Therefore, I have determined that when that happens.. I'll write the lyrics (or title, if there are no lyrics) to the songs that "speak" to me in this blog.
So, for this evening...
From Funny Girl ( I kind of relate to the main character, so that music pops into my head a LOT)
Who are you now, now that you're mine?
Are you something more than you were before?
Are you warmer in the rain? Are you stronger for my touch?
Am I giving too little? Am I loving you too much?
How is the view? Sunny and green?
How do you compare it to the views you've seen?
I know I am better, braver, and surer, too. But you..
Who are you now? Who are you now?
Are you someone better for my love?
I don't talk a lot (babbling is NOT the same as talking). I have a serious problem verbally expressing myself. Writing, I am not so bad with, but I find that I am most able to convey my thoughts and feelings via music. More specifically, I feel certain ways, and a song will either pop into my head or I will hear it and it just... clicks.. with what I am feeling at the time. Therefore, I have determined that when that happens.. I'll write the lyrics (or title, if there are no lyrics) to the songs that "speak" to me in this blog.
So, for this evening...
From Funny Girl ( I kind of relate to the main character, so that music pops into my head a LOT)
Who are you now, now that you're mine?
Are you something more than you were before?
Are you warmer in the rain? Are you stronger for my touch?
Am I giving too little? Am I loving you too much?
How is the view? Sunny and green?
How do you compare it to the views you've seen?
I know I am better, braver, and surer, too. But you..
Who are you now? Who are you now?
Are you someone better for my love?
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