Let Me Fall

I wonder how many people would truly grieve if I went to sleep tonight and never woke up again...
My moods have been mercurial, at best, the past few months. And as soon as I determine to see the so-called "silver lining," someone has to point out all the damned storm clouds. I can't be mad at them; they're concerned and they are trying to look out for my well-being. But I can only deal with one cloud at a time, and I'm just not mentally equipped to deal with Hurricane Ike all at once.


Let me fall
Let me climb
There's a moment when fear and dream must collide
Someone I am I waiting for courage
The one I want, the one I will become will catch me
So let me fall, if I must fall
I won't heed your warnings
I won't hear them.

Let me fall,
If I fall
though the Phoenix may or may not rise
I will dance so freely
Holding on to no one.
You can hold me only if you too will fall away
from all these useless fears and shame.

Oh, someone I am is waiting for courage
The one I want, the one I will become will catch me
So let me fall, if I must fall
I won't heed your warnings.
I won't hear.

Let me fall,
If I fall
There's no reason
To miss this one chance
This perfect moment.
Just let me fall.

~Let Me Fall (from Cirque Du Soleil)
words and music by Jim Corcoran and Benoit Juntas
sung by Josh Groban

I Don't Wanna Fight

I'm tired. Tina Turner tonight, all the way.


I Don't Wanna Fight - Tina Turner

THERE'S A PALE MOON IN THE SKY
THE KIND YOU MAKE YOUR WISHES ON
LIKE THE LIGHT IN YOUR EYES
THE ONE I BUILD MY DREAMS UPON
IT'S NOT HERE ANY LONGER
SOMETHING HAPPENED SOMEWHERE AND WE BOTH KNOW WHY
BUT ME I'M GETTING STRONGER
WE MUST STOP PRETENDING
I CAN'T LIVE THIS LIE

I DON'T CARE WHO'S WRONG OR RIGHT
I DON'T REALLY WANNA FIGHT NO MORE
TOO MUCH TALKING BABE
LET'S SLEEP ON IT TONIGHT
I DON'T REALLY WANNA FIGHT NO MORE
THIS IS TIME FOR LETTING GO

I HEAR A WHISPER IN THE AIR
THAT SIMPLY DOESN'T BOTHER ME
BOY, CAN'T YOU SEE THAT I DON'T CARE
OR ARE YOU LOOKING RIGHT THROUGH ME
IT SEEMS TO ME THAT LATELY (SEEMS TO ME THAT LATELY)
YOU LOOK AT ME THE WRONG WAY AND I START TO CRY
COULD IT BE THAT MAYBE (COULD IT BE THAT MAYBE)
THIS CRAZY SITUATION IS THE REASON WHY

I DON'T CARE WHO'S WRONG OR RIGHT
I DON'T REALLY WANNA FIGHT NO MORE
TOO MUCH TALKING BABE
DON'T CARE NOW WHO'S TO BLAME
I DON'T REALLY WANNA FIGHT NO MORE
THIS IS TIME FOR LETTING GO

HANGING ON TO THE PAST
IT ONLY STANDS IN OUR WAY
WE HAVE TO GROW FOR OUR LOVE TO LAST
BUT WE JUST GREW APART

OH DON'T WANNA HURT NO MORE
BUT BABY DON'T YOU KNOW
NO, I DON'T WANNA HURT NO MORE...
TIRED OF ALL THESE GAMES
THIS TIME I'M WALKING BABE

Broken Vow

Was wondering what kind of song would fit my rather down-trodden mood of the last few days.. and i just so happened that when I turned on Yahoo's Launchcast radio, it was playing one of my favorite Josh Groban songs, Broken Vow
As I am a girl, for the lyrics, I went with Lara Fabian's version, rather than Josh Groban.


Broken Vow, as sung by Lara Fabian

Tell me her name I want to know
The way she looks and where you go
I need to see her face, I need to understand
Why you and I came to an end

Tell me again I want to hear
Who broke my faith in all these years
Who lays with you at night while I'm here all alone
Remembering when I was your own?

I'll let you go
I'll let you fly
Why do I keep on asking why
I'll let you go
Now that I've found
A way to keep somehow
More than a broken vow

Tell me the words I never said
Show me the tears you never shed
Give me the touch, that one you promised to be mine
Or has it vanished for all time?

I'll let you go
I'll let you fly
Why do I keep on asking why
I'll let you go
Now that I've found
A way to keep somehow
More than a broken vow

I close my eyes
And dream of you, and then I realize
The more to love than only bitterness and lies
I close my eyes
I'd give away my soul to hold you once again
And never let this promise end

I'll let you go,
I'll let you fly
Now that I know, I'm asking why
I'll let you go
Now that I've found
A way to keep somehow
More than a broken vow

I Knew I Loved You (Before I Met You)

Was lying here being melancholy, and that song popped into my head. It has a special significance to me, and reminds me of happier memories.
I miss the man who sang it to me..

I Knew I Loved You Before I Met You - Savage Garden

Maybe it's intuition
But some things you just don't question
Like in your eyes I see my future in an instant
And there it goes
I think I've found my best friend
I know that it might sound more than a little crazy
But I believe

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

There's just no rhyme or reason
Only this sense of completion
And in your eyes
I see the missing pieces I'm searching for
I think I've found my way home

I know that it might sound more than a little crazy
But I believe
I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life

A thousand angels dance around you
I am complete now that I've found you

I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life...

Awake

I love Josh Groban. He and Michael Crawford are my two favorite male singers... not to mention the guy is cute as a bug. :)
I just (as in, less than five minutes ago) heard a song of his that I had not heard before... and it had the same effect on me as when I first heard the young man sing.

It made my heart hurt. That breathless, clenching hurt that you read about in romance novels. but don't find too often in real life.

Can't think of anything else to say.. heh

Awake -Josh Groban

A beautiful and blinding morning
The world outside begins to breathe
See clouds arriving without warning
I need you here to shelter me
And I know that only time will tell us how
To carry on without each other

So keep me awake to memorize you
Give me more time to feel this way
We can't stay like this forever
But I can have you next to me today

If I could make these moments endless
If I could stop the winds of change
If we just keep our eyes wide open
Then everything would stay the same
And I know that only time will tell me how
We'll carry on without each other

So keep me awake for every moment
Give us more time to be this way
We can't stay like this forever
But I can have you next to me today

We'll let tomorrow wait, you're here, right now, with me
All my fears just fall away, when you are all I see
We can't stay like this forever
But I have you here today
And I will remember
Oh I will remember
Remember all the love we shared today

The Last Night Of The World

You guessed it... I love musicals. This lovely number is from Miss Saigon. And so speaks to my inner closet romantic. I've never seen it, only heard the music.. but from what I gather.. an American GI falls in love with a Vietnamese girl... is a very pretty song. He wants to take her home with him, away from the ugliness of the war..
I suggest finding it and listening... would put a link in here for a listening experience, but don't know how :) Anyhoos... "Last Night of the World" from Miss Saigon....

Man: In a place that won't let us feel
In a life where nothing seems real
I have found you
I have found you

Woman: In a world that's moving to fast
In a world where nothing can last
I will hold you
I will hold you

Man: Our lives will change when tomorrow comes

Woman: Tonight our hearts drown the distant drums

Man: And we'll have music all right
Tearing the night

Together: A song
Played on a solo saxophone
A crazy sound
A lonely sound
A cry that tells us love goes on and on
Played on a solo saxophone
It’s telling me to hold you tight
And dance like it’s the last night of the world

Man: On the other side of the earth
There’s a place where life still has worth
I will take you

Woman: I'll go with you

Man: You wont believe all the things you'll see
I know cause you'll see them all in me

Together: If we're together that's when
We'll hear it again
A song
Played on a solo saxophone
A crazy sound
A lonely sound
A cry that tells us love goes on and on
Played on a solo saxophone
It’s telling me to hold you tight
And dance like it’s the last night of the world

Woman: Dreams were all I ever knew

Man: Dreams, you won't need when I'm through

Together: Anywhere
We may be
I will sing with you, a song...
So stay with me and hold me tight
And dance like it’s the last night of the world

Who Are You Now?

I have finally determined a "direction" for this blog.
I don't talk a lot (babbling is NOT the same as talking). I have a serious problem verbally expressing myself. Writing, I am not so bad with, but I find that I am most able to convey my thoughts and feelings via music. More specifically, I feel certain ways, and a song will either pop into my head or I will hear it and it just... clicks.. with what I am feeling at the time. Therefore, I have determined that when that happens.. I'll write the lyrics (or title, if there are no lyrics) to the songs that "speak" to me in this blog.

So, for this evening...
From Funny Girl ( I kind of relate to the main character, so that music pops into my head a LOT)

Who are you now, now that you're mine?
Are you something more than you were before?
Are you warmer in the rain? Are you stronger for my touch?
Am I giving too little? Am I loving you too much?
How is the view? Sunny and green?
How do you compare it to the views you've seen?
I know I am better, braver, and surer, too. But you..
Who are you now? Who are you now?
Are you someone better for my love?